Thanks for this deeply human and relatable piece Dana. I can definitely resonate. I've just had a week where my anxiety spiked so high that nothing could help to settle it. It's a humbling reminder that no matter how many skills and tools we develop, and how much work and growth we do, there will still be moments when old patterns take hold, young wounded parts show up, and we are simply reminded of our humanity! The fact that there is also a part that can observe it happening, is magic in itself I think. In many ways, I think it's helpful that I can still get caught in these patterns. It keeps things real when I'm working with clients. I never promise anyone a 'fix' for anything....
On a separate note. I do hope you've been able to reclaim the lost money. And I'm VERY impressed that you could still appreciate the sexy CIBC guy, even in the midst of meltdown 😄
ooo Dana!!! just getting up here on the East Coast and devoured this. the way you unfurl how this shitty thing feels and how you are thinking about it is jaw droppingly good. you sum up the experience perfectly: FUUUCK… but wait, I want to hear more about the sexy customer service guy. thinking of you today!
Thank you, Debbie! SCSG and writing this letter were the highlights of the experience, for sure. That’s the thing about writing and British accents - both tend to make things a lot better. 😅
I get the freak out!!! This kind of thing is such an invasion…. I live in Spain and local town hall claim I did not pay house tax from 2020 to 2022 BUT during those years someone broke into my house and stole my receipts so I can’t prove I paid, now they want 700euros from me, total scam! I’m torn, do I accept loss with grace or go after the thieving bastards? I’m writing about it. I hope Sexy guy fixed your account x
Nooo - how awful! Glad you’re writing about it - that always helps me process and find even a little more spaciousness. May the sexy fraud first responders work in your favour! xo
This sucks so much! I have had it happen a few times and it's not easy to handle. I'm glad, at least, you got sexy CIBC man so there was some help along with slightly comic relief. I laughed reading about him. Be well Dana.
Hahahaha omg this was intensely relatable. Telling the inner observer to fuck off lolol… yeah, I hear that 😅 it is also necessary sometimes… just gotta move through the reality of the feelings…
And oh my heart goes out to you… I would be freaking out so bad too. Plus having to deal with all the phone calls and the inevitable run around? Ugh, even worse.
Hahahaha omg this was intensely relatable. Telling the inner observer to fuck off lolol… yeah, I hear that 😅 it is also necessary sometimes… just gotta move through the reality of the feelings…
And oh my heart goes out to you… I would be freaking out so bad too. Plus having to deal with all the phone calls and the inevitable run around? Ugh, even worse.
I'm so sorry you've been put through this, Dana. 🖤 I'd react the exact same way and would very much feel like it was somehow my fault. I hope the sexy phone guy is right and you get all your money back soon. Take care and keep writing about it! 🖤
I am so sorry this happened to you, Dana. And I totally get the 12-year-old freakout response even when you've got a long and deep Buddhist practice. I've been there too, and still visit there at times when it's around something with deep conditioning, like money. Whoa, money.
A few weeks ago, the windshield of my car and the window of my living room were both smashed by rocks thrown into them by ?? we have no idea who. I wasn't the only one in my neighborhood who got vandalized, which was a small bit of comfort. But my own safety triggers were completely lit up and fear was coursing through my body. My first impulse a day later was, "I need to build a goddamn fence in front of my house!" I called a bunch of folks to get estimates. And I may still do that. But it soon became clear how much fear was in the driver's seat that first week. And so it is. Only human! I've been able to talk myself into a pause this past week.
I am so glad you got the sexy CIBC rep, and hope all funds are returned to you soon. Big love!
Thank you, Maia… and yikes! I’m so sorry that happened to you. I’d be totally freaked out too. Actually, I remember when someone smashed my car window overnight when we lived in Colorado years ago - my immediate, instinctual reaction was feeling very unsafe (even though we lived in a very safe neighbourhood). There’s something deeply unsettling about the effects of violent anger that seem to come out of nowhere, unexpectedly. Whether or not you end up getting the fence, I’m wishing you peace and serenity.
CIBC was on it! They’ve already returned my money and even sent a new card to Thailand via DHL, which has already arrived.
I get it, Dana. I told a really rude customer to get the fuck out of my shop last week and then texted her a follow up to tell her how rude and arrogant she was. Yes, she was awful and my manager appreciated that I had her back but, still, I try not to lose my shit to that extent at 56 yrs old AND almost 6 years sober AND a daily meditator yada yada. Progress not perfection.....all doing our best and some days are better than others. Bank fraud is infuriating on many levels.
Sigh... Sorry you had that shitty experience, Chris. And you’re so right: some days (and even parts of a single day) are better than others. I’ve noticed that whatever I do earlier tends to rise to the surface during that evening’s meditation; for me, this has been one of the biggest motivators to shift certain defaults and behaviors. Keeps me accountable and honest, that’s for sure!
Thanks for this deeply human and relatable piece Dana. I can definitely resonate. I've just had a week where my anxiety spiked so high that nothing could help to settle it. It's a humbling reminder that no matter how many skills and tools we develop, and how much work and growth we do, there will still be moments when old patterns take hold, young wounded parts show up, and we are simply reminded of our humanity! The fact that there is also a part that can observe it happening, is magic in itself I think. In many ways, I think it's helpful that I can still get caught in these patterns. It keeps things real when I'm working with clients. I never promise anyone a 'fix' for anything....
On a separate note. I do hope you've been able to reclaim the lost money. And I'm VERY impressed that you could still appreciate the sexy CIBC guy, even in the midst of meltdown 😄
So beautifully put and so true, Vicki. Thank you, and sending you wishes for ease and serenity this week. ❤️
And yes - hopefully once they complete their investigation, all money will be returned! Sexy CIBC guy is on it. 😄
Good job sexy CIBC guy 😃
ooo Dana!!! just getting up here on the East Coast and devoured this. the way you unfurl how this shitty thing feels and how you are thinking about it is jaw droppingly good. you sum up the experience perfectly: FUUUCK… but wait, I want to hear more about the sexy customer service guy. thinking of you today!
Thank you, Debbie! SCSG and writing this letter were the highlights of the experience, for sure. That’s the thing about writing and British accents - both tend to make things a lot better. 😅
Debbie! How nice to see you here! xo
I get the freak out!!! This kind of thing is such an invasion…. I live in Spain and local town hall claim I did not pay house tax from 2020 to 2022 BUT during those years someone broke into my house and stole my receipts so I can’t prove I paid, now they want 700euros from me, total scam! I’m torn, do I accept loss with grace or go after the thieving bastards? I’m writing about it. I hope Sexy guy fixed your account x
Nooo - how awful! Glad you’re writing about it - that always helps me process and find even a little more spaciousness. May the sexy fraud first responders work in your favour! xo
This sucks so much! I have had it happen a few times and it's not easy to handle. I'm glad, at least, you got sexy CIBC man so there was some help along with slightly comic relief. I laughed reading about him. Be well Dana.
Thank you, Donna. And yes - praise be to sexy CIBC man! 😅
I’m so sorry this happened but, wow, the way you delivered this had me in stitches.
A tragedy became a comedy. That’s strength. Hope it all works out.
Thanks so much, Adam. I will say that this was the most fun I’ve had writing in a while - so there’s that! 😅
Yikes 😳
Annndddd I love you for sharing it all — in a much more coherent way than I probably would have under similar circumstances.
Money is such a trigger for old wounds and patterns.
Thank all that’s holy for the dharma of good people and the karma of whatever wisdom we’ve been privileged to gather.
Much love and respect ✊
Thank you, Nancy. And yes - here’s to that dharma and karma!
Dana, seems you handled the whole thing... perfectly! Just exactly right! Congratulations! xoxoxoxo
Thank you, Val. I will say, it made for a fun writing exercise! 😅 xoxo
What a horrible situation
to find yourself in 🙏🏼 sending you all the hearts 💕 ❤️💖 I love that phrase!
All the hearts back to you, Lucy! ❤️
What a drag, Dana!
Sigh... Thank you, Diana. 😅
I’m sorry this happened. Karma owes you.
Thanks, JB!
Hahahaha omg this was intensely relatable. Telling the inner observer to fuck off lolol… yeah, I hear that 😅 it is also necessary sometimes… just gotta move through the reality of the feelings…
And oh my heart goes out to you… I would be freaking out so bad too. Plus having to deal with all the phone calls and the inevitable run around? Ugh, even worse.
Sending hugs!
So necessary! 😅 Thank you, Natalie. Hugs to you!
Hahahaha omg this was intensely relatable. Telling the inner observer to fuck off lolol… yeah, I hear that 😅 it is also necessary sometimes… just gotta move through the reality of the feelings…
And oh my heart goes out to you… I would be freaking out so bad too. Plus having to deal with all the phone calls and the inevitable run around? Ugh, even worse.
Sending hugs!
I'm so sorry you've been put through this, Dana. 🖤 I'd react the exact same way and would very much feel like it was somehow my fault. I hope the sexy phone guy is right and you get all your money back soon. Take care and keep writing about it! 🖤
Thank you, Becky. And, yeah, isn’t it wild - the impulse to blame ourselves? Lots of hearts to you. ❤️
I'm making you a healing breakfast sammy. And thank your higher power for your partner and the sexy support guy.
Yes, please! Thank you, John! 😊
I am so sorry this happened to you, Dana. And I totally get the 12-year-old freakout response even when you've got a long and deep Buddhist practice. I've been there too, and still visit there at times when it's around something with deep conditioning, like money. Whoa, money.
A few weeks ago, the windshield of my car and the window of my living room were both smashed by rocks thrown into them by ?? we have no idea who. I wasn't the only one in my neighborhood who got vandalized, which was a small bit of comfort. But my own safety triggers were completely lit up and fear was coursing through my body. My first impulse a day later was, "I need to build a goddamn fence in front of my house!" I called a bunch of folks to get estimates. And I may still do that. But it soon became clear how much fear was in the driver's seat that first week. And so it is. Only human! I've been able to talk myself into a pause this past week.
I am so glad you got the sexy CIBC rep, and hope all funds are returned to you soon. Big love!
Thank you, Maia… and yikes! I’m so sorry that happened to you. I’d be totally freaked out too. Actually, I remember when someone smashed my car window overnight when we lived in Colorado years ago - my immediate, instinctual reaction was feeling very unsafe (even though we lived in a very safe neighbourhood). There’s something deeply unsettling about the effects of violent anger that seem to come out of nowhere, unexpectedly. Whether or not you end up getting the fence, I’m wishing you peace and serenity.
CIBC was on it! They’ve already returned my money and even sent a new card to Thailand via DHL, which has already arrived.
Lots of love to you!
GREAT!!!!
I get it, Dana. I told a really rude customer to get the fuck out of my shop last week and then texted her a follow up to tell her how rude and arrogant she was. Yes, she was awful and my manager appreciated that I had her back but, still, I try not to lose my shit to that extent at 56 yrs old AND almost 6 years sober AND a daily meditator yada yada. Progress not perfection.....all doing our best and some days are better than others. Bank fraud is infuriating on many levels.
Sigh... Sorry you had that shitty experience, Chris. And you’re so right: some days (and even parts of a single day) are better than others. I’ve noticed that whatever I do earlier tends to rise to the surface during that evening’s meditation; for me, this has been one of the biggest motivators to shift certain defaults and behaviors. Keeps me accountable and honest, that’s for sure!